Growing up

I used to be a spoiled little girl. (Now, I can say it that way)
I used to be a nice girl. (at least, that's what some people thought)
Since I'm once, an introvert, even a coward.... I avoid myself from making troubles. 
I thought it must be hurt, if I'm in trouble.
I thought that I just can't stand any problems. 
So, to be a 'nice' girl is the best option. 
But now, when I think of it, I'm not that nice.
I used to be a shy person and reserve. 
Passive.
Even lack of confidence. 
That's exactly not the things that you can be proud with, eh?

But, people grow.
I grow. 

OK, let's say that my grade is good enough, so I could get into the best college in my region. 
No, it's not about my grade in highschool. It's the matter of 'LUCK'.
But, I forgot to thanks God for that. 

Till one day, I made a mistake.
Not my first, but the biggest! (at least for now)
I completely losing my predicate as a- once again, 'nice' girl, or even a 'smart' girl. (But, I thought I'm not that smart. haha)
Now, I'm on my sixth years in my college. 
I'm still struggling to 'bring back' my undergraduate degree.
I've made my parents disappointed. Even upset, I think. (Although they never scold me so badly. They know I'm very sensitive) 
Since I'm the first daughter, they might have a great expectations to me.
But, for my stupidity, I once thought that I walked in the wrong path. That I should be better in another place. 
That time, I was lost by my ego. 
How stupid. 


But, I'm growing up.

I now realized, that God warned me. 
That God is preparing a better plan for me. 


Everything becomes easy when I just simply accept my path of destiny and move on.

Now, I'm no longer regret the mistake I have made. 
Because, from having such hard and desperate situation, I learned to grow up. 
Now, I'm feel like being born again. To be someone new. Be a better me. 
Now, I'm fully confidence about my future. 
Because I realized my potentials. 
That I have passions that I want to follow. 

I'm glad I made mistake, and I learned from it. 

Didn't they said: "People grow up by repeatedly making mistakes." ?

Life's a journey after all. :D